HOLD MY HAND. I'll take you there,
Somehow. Someday. Somewhere.
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I'm a 19 year old Fashion Junkee from Angeles City Pampanga. Been a blogger since I was 13. Frustrated singer & dancer and a hopeless romantic.
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Sunday, May 30, 2010
yeah im that girl.
im the girl who prefers one rose instead of a dozen. im the girl who would rather stay in on a Friday night than go to a wild party with random strangers. im the girl who wouldnt make you wait on her hand and foot, but would do anything to make you happy. im the girl who would enjoy having a movie night rather than going to some fancy restaurant. im the girl who would rather stay up all night sharing secrets than going out and getting drunk. im the girl who wont make you hold her bags, but would rather hold your hand instead. im the girl who will love you more than anyone can possibly dream of. im the girl who would give the world to see you smile. im the girl who cries herself to sleep at night thinking of you, when i know im the last thing on your mind...
you fuckin ruined my day! wag mag maganda pls! and stop talking shit about me because all you're saying is BULLSHIT!
Monday, May 24, 2010
emo ako pls?
minsan parang mas gusto kong mamatay nalang. :)
mas ok pa diba? parang ang hirap pag sabay sabay problema.
Sunday, May 23, 2010
stop bein an anon when you're too obvious.
ang sakit pala pag nalaman mong friend mo yung hater mo sa formspring noh? i mean, not just a friend eh.. close friend. childhood friend. sister. lahat na. alam mo yung ganun feeling? hindi masakit yung mga sinabi nya, masakit yung malaman mong ginaganun ka nya porke hindi mo sya makikilala dahil sa putanginang "ask anonymously" na yan. sana sinabi nalang nya straight to my face, kasi its better kung ganun at ganun naman talaga ung ginagawa namin ng buong barkada. pag may sasabihin kahit gaano pa kasakit or kung ano mang term yun, sasabihin harap-harapan. atleast naman kasi hindi plastikan diba? wow lang eh. sobrang, napa-what the fuck ako. im very very disappointed. tama si mycah, maybe she's "inggit".. haynako, grow up! 19yrs old ka na! like srsly.
Saturday, May 15, 2010
"EVERYTHING WILL BE OKAY IN THE END. IF ITS NOT OKAY, THEN ITS NOT THE END."
totoo pala talaga yan :)
had last taping today for First Time. 7am-5pm. sobrang tiring :| pero everything's worth it. had so much fun with maxine & sofia. ang sarap lang asarin ni sofia at ian during break eh, they look so cute together! syempre sobrang awkward din ng moment because andun si jhake and all. di nagpapansinan as usual, tinginan lang.. pero after taping we were at the lobby of the shooting location, before leaving we took pics and all then bigla akong tinawag ng daddy ni jhake.. and as usual, sobrang kwentuhan to the max na naman kami ni tito. sobrang tagal namin di nagkita so sobrang dami namin napagkwentuhan. isa na rin dun ung past.. natuwa ako sa mga sinabi nya, at medyo na-teary eye at the same time.. he even said na hanga sya sakin dahil.... haha secret nalang yun. sakin nalang yun. :) tapos bigla dumating sundo ko, my mom.. my mom & jhake's dad talked.. then suddenly biglang dumating si jhake.. he touched my hand and said "ui.", ako smile lang. I introduced him to my mom. medyo gumaan pakiramdam ko dahil sa mga sinabi ng daddy ni jhake. he's the best talaga ever! I can't wait to see him again soon. and hopefully, on another taping. :)
Wednesday, May 12, 2010
just because I don't scream my feelings, means I have none.
I wonder why alot of ppl can't let go of my past.. I mean, I still get issues about Jhake, and it's quite annoying sometimes. okay hindi ko nalang mamasamain lahat ng mga bullshit about Jhake & I on my formspring. I'll just think that the reason why ppl hold on to memories so tight is because memories are the only thing that won't change even when everything else does. haha! think positive ba. pero nakakainis lang talaga kasi diba guys, matagal na yun eh? pareho kaming may sariling buhay and we've both moved on from the past. I'm happy. he's happy. let's put aside the things that aren't supposed to be talked about anymore. correct me if I'm wrong.
today was a fairytale. 
my mum is such a day ruiner!! I just hate her like hellll. lagi nalang mali ginagawa ko eh, lahat ng mali nakikita nya pero pag tama hindi nya nakikita. ayos diba? kung pwede lang makipagpalit ng nanay eh diba? haha pero joke lang, she's still my mom and tho I always say I hate her, I still love her. and lagi naman nandyan si (insertnamehere) to make me smile. :) if my mom wasn't a day ruiner, for sure araw-araw kumpleto ang araw ko dahil kay (insertnamehere). haha. he never fails to make me smile. haynako, siguro kung game lang namin yung "kung sinong unang mainlove, talo" for sure, tagal ko ng talo! LOL. ikaw ba naman, sabihan ng kung ano anong sweet na salita eh. haha. pero I just hope this is for real now.. I mean, I wish things would work out wayyy better than my past relationships.. kasi I swear, this time I wanna be super serious. :D
anyways, I'm back in Manila. I missed my room so much. oooh and I cleaned my room today! oh and changed my bed sheets for the very first time! haha. hassle pero I think I needed to learn that kasi when school starts sa apartment wala kaming maid so dapat matuto ako maging independent kasi kami lang ng friend ko nandun. tinapon ko lahat ng mga gamit na hindi ko na kailangan, saw some old highschool stuff in my drawers ; mga projects ko before, ang tataas ng grades eh, 87 was the lowest and 93 was the highest. haha! I was trying to find my black nike baller kenneth gave me when we were in senior high, kaso hindi ko na mahanap. yun talaga yung reason kung bakit ako sinipag maglinis. hahaha! gusto ko ng madaming baller. :D
anyways, I have to go now.. chattin' with my bestfriend, noreen on Y!M. she's kinda annoying me. haha. joke. incase you read this Moi, iloveyou! eww. ♥
Tuesday, May 11, 2010
you've got a face for a smile you know
there comes a time when you have to stand up and shout:
this is me damn it! I look the way I look, think the way I think, feel the way I feel, love the way I love! I am a whole complex package. Take me… or leave me. Accept me, or walk away! do NOT try to make me feel like less of a person, just because I don't fit your idea of who I should be and don't try to change me to fit your mold. If I need to change, I alone will make that decision.
When you are strong enough to love yourself 100%, good and bad - you will be amazed at the opportunities that life presents you.
Sunday, May 9, 2010
Where is he? ♥
I want a boy who will tell me when I'm being stupid. Who won't baby me with his words. A boy who will still give time to his friends. A boy who will tell me "No". He will watch stupid movies with me, but makes me watch his favorites also. A boy who's willing to drop everything to be with me, but knows when to let it be. A boy who will know he's important to me, but won't mind when I change my plans to help someone out. I want a boy who's enjoyable to look at, he doesn't have to be gorgeous. I just want someone who I can pay attention to. A boy who will randomly bring me food, cause he knows I love to eat. A boy who can make jokes about me, a boy that I can laugh with. Someone who wont mind when I even embarrass myself. A boy who will buy me something, something I would actually want, none of that jewelry crap. Someone who doesn't do everything I ask but when it comes to something important I can count on him to be there. Someone who I don't feel threatened by. A boy who has other friends that are girls, but I can trust him with them. A boy who will know when to leave me alone when I have my stupid fits. A boy who I can just sit with. I don’t need the whole fairytale deal; I just want to feel comfortable.
If I were rain,
I was drizzle && he was hurricane.